Heart-Dust

I got a new computer for Christmas this year and according to this one's resolution my photos look totally different than what I thought they looked on my old computer!! This is not good. What do I do nooooooow!?!? щ(ಥДಥщ)

I can't sleep anymore, but I don't have the energy to get out of bed or off the couch most of the time.

Negative thoughts are all I can seem to think. It is an endless circle of terrible things I say to myself about myself.

It is a struggle to go to work, do my school work, to clean myself…basically everything is a fight with myself.

I can't see myself in the future anymore. I just think, "I am not going to amount to anything…I should just disappear."

But I am going to be getting help hopefully. I have a doctors appointment this week so maybe I can get started on the right track again.

I think I need some hugs and support before those things stop mattering to me and just end up making me feel worse. It would also be nice to talk to someone who is going through the same stuff. I think relating to someone would help me feel a lot better.

These are the reasons I haven't been taking photos, I just CAN'T. I can't even look at my camera without getting really upset. I don't know why, I just get really upset.
I hope I can upload soon.

~Katherine Rhiannon